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Pulse
06:09
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things went too far they did
reality seemed to slip it did
everything led me to this feeling
that nothing went as I thought
faces seem to go away
places never seem to stay
I wish it could be any different
just let me slow it down down down
to a pulse
could it get any better than this
when so much seems to make sense again
all that is desired is to let it be
just for a second more
take my place I beg of you
I wandered too far too far
let me learn that which I never knew
to let everything whittle down
to a pulse
things grew so vivid it did
when you give so much of now
it never seizes to be so much of more
that nothing can stop what you sowed
recreate me I understand again
what you tried to teach me with this dance
that all is where it needs to begin
so I can breathe and exist in pulse
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2. |
Unravel
05:34
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light focused on your eyes
and left me suspended
what a sensation
there is nowhere in this world I'd rather be
than here with you
I know my pretty puzzle I know
that you have not seen my adoration for you
and as I crave your attention
I don't understand why you'll never be mine
I need to unravel this mystery
I need to unravel this fallacy
I need to know why
I want to see why
it's tearing me apart
destroying my heart
the final chapter seems close
where do I go you float further away
and as heaven turns to dark
erases your presence your meaning has sunk
have you heard my words
though not spoken
tearing through me
you just smile you do
when you look my way
but you can't see
I need to unravel this mystery
I need to unravel this fallacy
I need to know why
I want to see why
it's tearing me apart
destroying my heart
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3. |
Fantasy
04:08
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such a pretty little face
when you're all coy
you love to play the victim
when you shy away
you know you have a smile
a demon could love
you know you have such eyes
a beast could adore
you're my fantasy
my fantasy
you're my fantasy
my fantasy
I'm walking on fire
when I'm near you
this evil in me
has left me rancid
when desire is hungry I feed it you
for when it gets dark
you are my fantasy
my fantasy
I cradle my thoughts
I let it wash around
I let it mingle for too long
I know it's wrong
this isn't me it's not
I've never been like this
I never wanted it
but I can't deny
you're my fantasy
my fantasy
you're my fantasy
my fantasy
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4. |
Flesh on Flesh
04:09
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hurt, we are so hurt
we don't feel the urge
to be naked
sane, creatures in habit
being inane
left so dumb
flesh on flesh is long gone
haste the moment more
there is only one and one
from each other torn
hush, do you hear
the voice
singing again
beneath the skin
why, has been so long
since we were unified
no more cause
flesh on flesh is long gone
haste the moment more
there is only one and one
from each other torn
flesh on flesh is long gone
haste the moment more
there is only one and one
from each other torn
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5. |
Happy to be Lost
03:52
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who are you again
I wanted to know
I found you were nowhere just like me
we should sit and ponder
what we want and need
we could we should
I'm happy to be lost
I'm happy to be lost
you call me afraid
you label me hurt
I am nothing you seem to want but that's OK
faint pieces of me
is all I have left
I don't mind don't care
I'm happy to be lost
I'm happy to be lost
past the perception
you so dearly see
calls someone for solace
someone who needs nothing
let go of my meaning
free me of your will
your will
your will
I'm happy to be lost
I'm happy to be lost
I'm happy to be lost
I'm happy to be lost
I'm happy to be lost
I'm happy to be lost
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6. |
Bipolar
01:40
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Penetration
06:10
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I don't wish to be alone
but I don't need anyone
being embraced by space
is something I'd welcome
a halo around my neck
blessing it should've been
until void slipped away
light flooded back in
don't be afraid they say
it'll be over soon
take a deep breath
here comes the penetration
the stars have yet to come
as soon as it goes dark
that familiar feeling of floating into space
I cant remember how it started
but I recall a scent
sweet smell of lemon and roses
that made me feel at home
don't be afraid they say
it'll be over soon
take a deep breath
here comes the penetration
I wish to be among the dark
since lemon and roses won't come
I wail and bawl 'till end
until someone comes to make me numb
sweet void I'll be there soon
to see my black oasis
they'll fix this light
see you soon my lemon and roses
don't be afraid they say
it'll be over soon
take a deep breath
here comes the penetration
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8. |
Within
04:19
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listen my son
hear these words
that you my boy
are everything
that no life you choose
will hurt you
that no path you take
will break you
in all things that are to come to you
is meant for your voice
for yourself
but never are you
to be overwhelmed
for you were made
to live how you wish
my son you are unique
you are
you are remarkable
you are
you need not
fear a single day
for the world
the world is within you
my boy you will have
all you need
with your future yet
to unfold my son
you have the ways to create your own
you can build things on your own
do not ever look back in shame
for every mistake you make my child
will be your way of sculpting your own
thus they are meant to be made
don't look back in shame
my son you are unique
you are
you are remarkable
you are
you need not
fear a single day
for the world
the world is within you
my son you are unique
you are
you are remarkable
you are
you need not
fear a single day
for the world
the world is within you
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9. |
Wicked Road
05:57
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listen to your words
they find their way through
your voice so sweet
utter things so evil
I never knew this you
never knew it before
never wanted too
never wanted too
my hands they shake
these words they bruise
my chest seems to split
I wish I never knew you
this room becomes a cell
you tower over me
every gesture you make
seems you wish to hurt me
such a familiar sight
when I walk along this wicked road
I always hated you
for pushing me down this wicked road
you say you needed him
to make you feel again
that I was never there
and I never cared
it didn't mean anything
but it is my fault
I needed to be more
I needed to be everything
I'm not me anymore
I changed for you
I am someone else
in someone else s life
kissed someone's woman
loved someone's wife
you're not mine at all
and I was never yours
I never really knew you were leading
me down this wicked road
I will tear myself away
away from this wicked road
wicked road
wicked road
wicked road
wicked road
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10. |
I Already Am
04:36
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fortune brought me you today
with smile you show yourself in light
never lead me astray they say they say
best of me that's what you'll take flight
i burn my past i shed myself new life
on morning i must bear new truths
somewhere a scream is heard in strife
a man anew takes his millionth form
what man does fate want to see
I'm willing I don't give a damn
once again you demand of me
to let me change what I already am
what I already am
what doubt is left change has set
mirrors show the product the product of faith
do you like do you like do you like this beast
do you like do you like do you like what i made
today has been another mark
another that's been left with plenty
so I dust off my new this new and shiny self
until that day change calls again
what man does fate want to see
I'm willing I don't give a damn
once again you demand of me
to let me change what I already am
what I already am
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11. |
Intentional Lie
03:55
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I wish you the worst
you made every day unbearable
I hate you the most
you are all but adorable
how wonderful it is
to wake up alone without you
something I will never miss
the way you always played the fool
intentional lie
to make me believe it's what I want
intentional lie
to hide the fact that it's you I want
nowhere is home
when it's haunted by your face
the truth is below
beneath the disgrace and mischief
dark matter smile
you wrecked each morning with pain
sadism and guile
some ways are to easier gain and gain
intentional lie
to convince myself you aren't perfect
intentional lie
to let me fake your whole existence
intentional lie
to make me believe it's what I want
intentional lie
to hide the fact that it's you I want
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12. |
I Feel You
04:29
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the times you were near
I was in euphoria
you made the light grow in me
I would always remember
the times we touched
felt protected and loved
things were all right
nothing to be proved
I still feel you
I still feel you
I still feel you
I still feel you
hello my sweet friend
shut the door and open your heart
close your eyes and free your mind
we're here never to be apart
I still feel you
even though you're gone
I still feel you
even though I'm alone
I still feel you
I still feel you
I still feel you
I still feel you
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